I have come to realise that there are parts of my identity that are true and parts that are a lie. There are ways in which I operate that are not actually part of who I really am. I am rediscovering my true identity, who I am and who I am in God. I have been on this discovery for about a year now, and just when I think ‘huh I am nearly there’ that is when I realise just how much further I have to go.
When an area is revealed to me, I deal with it through thinking, blogging, mainly talking being the extrovert that I am, praying and time. Just when one area is revealed, then another is revealed, and another and another. I end up with loads of areas which are all somehow connected. Some people have told me I need to chill a bit more. I do chill, honest! I watch Star Trek and play guitar. I am just an intense person, I am not someone who floats through life, I think about everything and generally struggle with it to (which is one of the areas I need to deal with, does everything need to be a fight).
All these areas that are being revealed to me are all embedded in one main area, which is ‘who I am’ and ‘who I am in God’. I believe that through re-discovering who I am I have to deal with issues from the past, forgive myself, seek forgiveness from God and separate the true parts and the lies (this surrounds all issues, its really hard to figure out the truth from the lies). Through doing this, I am learning so much more about myself, which in turn is leading to me discovering more about God. About who he is and who he wants me to be.
