At the moment I am going through quite a lot of doubting. Mainly about my job situation, I have been offered a job as a LA, but I am not sure yet what the salary will be, and I have a feeling that I am not going to be able to afford to live of it.
I really want to do a job that is fulfilling, and I know that teaching would be, but I am no longer sure that this job has come at the right time. I am really enjoying my job at the uni now, because I am now working with a team of people and I am based in the centre of town, which I love. There are opportunities here, and OK so its admin, but after a year of trying to get some security, I have almost found it in this job, I don’t want to risk it all.
If I thought this was just fear, I would tell myself to take the job anyway, but it doesnt feel like fear, it feels like it just isnt right just now. I am normally good at making big decisions, but on this occassion i am not. I need to find out a few more facts, like the salary of the LA post and also what opportunities they are at the uni.
I just feel frustrated and also run down because of it. I am stuck between two paths and the uncertainty is just subconsciously weighing me down. I don’t feel stressed, because I am a generally upbeat, and don’t let things get to me. However I do feel pressured and it is affecting me.
I just want to figure out what is the best thing to do, make the decision and go for it, I just dont want to make the wrong decision.
